22.8.20 (life updates)
16:06yay, kenzie posts that life updates post! woo!
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you see, like a flower in a sidewalk crack, you may appear to be stuck in difficult circumstance. but, like that flower, you can still grow in the environment where your roots have been planted.
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~i have a boyfriend. he's chill, and he really likes to cuddle me (with permission, of course. i have touch issues). we've been together since february. also he really likes ramen, i gave him ramen the day schools closed because of covid because i thought it would be one of the last times i would see him, and he actually cried happy tears over a packet of instant ramen. (i'm actually facetiming him as i write this)
~i got a new therapist. i went without one for about a two years, even when i was at my lowest. but she's super nice, even though i can't see her in person. she understands how my brain works (yay, mental illness and trauma!) and is super supportive of me through everything. also, she once saw me on her for you page on tiktok.
~i shaved off all my hair.. oops. do i regret it? yes and no.
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it's not easy to bloom through concrete and yet, you are. because you are strong. you have so much untapped potential, so much strength that you didn’t even know was there, and that is what will keep you going even when you feel like you cannot go anymore. you don’t even realize how strong you are without even trying.
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~i finally made a second playlist on spotify to listen to that has more.. updated, i guess?.. music. my main playlist was full of emo stuff i listened to in middle school. i don't really listen to that stuff anymore. but if you're interested, here's the playlist.
~i'm going to be a sophomore in high school in a couple weeks. that's lowkey really scary, it feels like just yesterday i was a freshman wandering the empty halls trying to find the counseling office. (i never found it on my own, btw. i had to get a hall monitor to lead the way for me LMAO) sadly, i'm going to a new school, and my school is going to be online until the middle of january (,:
~i've read SO many good books recently. my favorites right now are little universes by heather demitrios and we are the ants by shaun david hutchinson. quarantine gave me an excuse to reread all the books on my (currently overflowing) bookshelf.
~i'm slowly learning how to recover. it's going to take a while, of course. but trying is what counts, right? i've been learning other healthy coping mechanisms for my eating disorder, been put on new adhd/depression medication that seems to be working, and i'm almost two and a half years (!!!!) clean of self harm (biggest accomplishment)
~i have an etsy shop now!! i opened it a couple weeks ago, and i plan on adding more stuff. 85% of the money i get from my shop goes towards various mental health/blm/lgbtq organizations. here it is!!
~i became a mod in a discord server! that's been taking up a lot of my time lol.
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keep growing, little flower. keep growing.
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let's talk!! what have you guys been up to? anything special?
stay cool & stay alive,
-kenzie
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